Had enough?

2002-10-18 1:04 p.m.

I'm bored and no one is home. I just made stuff to mail to people. But only 3 people sent me their address. The rest of you can only wonder what treasures I have in store for the lucky few. I ain't mad atcha. I have to call more venues for quotes on the prom. I will do that tomorrow on my train ride home. I'm going home for the weekend. My mother will make me pizza and give me a cake (I'm going to have the last piece of that cake Debbie made for me) and Nicole and I will go hiking in the night in the woods. I love it. Especially since it still scares the shit out of me. I’m going now to get glue for the glue gun. Last night I went out with people from work and one of the auditors. He paid for the whole first tab. $180.

hello-hello-ello-ello-llo-llo-o-o-o-o-o-o

2002-10-18 11:53 a.m.

Is anybody home?

Red, orange, yellow, crunch!

2002-10-18 9:21 a.m.

I was sure yesterday was the day. That something would happen. And I knew when it happened, I'd know what it was. Only, as I laid slack jawed on the futon last night (one leg off and my head on the stuffed bear rug) just before closing my eyes for all time (7 hours), I got a sinking feeling.

Not knowing what that something was by the end of the night didn't mean that it didn't happen, just that I didn't know about it yet. That's not the kind of something I want to happen. Not at all. The kind you don't know about until after it happens want's you dead or crying.

Oddly enough, I’m reeling in joy today.

I really want to run around in the woods.

And go on a trip on a plane or train.

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